i partied enough. to the extent i dont feel like partying anytime soon anymore. so yes, im gonna stay sober until evan's back. cant believe it has only been one pathetic weekend without her. i'm gay i'm gay i'm gay. cant wait to upload the pics. and i cant believe my birthday's not here yet. its just so pointless la friday's so called celebration. i donno. when sj was telling her friends, 'we're celebrating her birthday today'. i felt super weird. like uh yeah, my birthday. and all the attention's like on me when its not even my birthday. like i must be happy, cant be unhappy. they all were there for me so i must have fun. they must see me having fun then they can party at ease and stuff like that. hmmm, i honestly didnt really like that. ah wells, im just glad everybody came. haha, yup. mannnn, gotta wait till im 22 or something before my birthday's on a friday. 22!! yadayadayadayada. my mum's cooking today, like finally after so many sundays having kfc or pizza or cze char or some other outside food la. J and i saw CZE CHAR spelt out for the very first time last night in the cab, on the way for prata and mee goreng. 'the most handsome cze char in town' or something along that line. we were like, what they mean by most handsome?! all the while i thought cze char was spelt as zhi char. but really aye, most handsome?? hahaha. finally bought a overseas card or whatever you call it. but its so laychey so many steps, so many numbers before i can reach evan. im still in deperate need of new clothes and shoes!! cant seem to find any nice pair of shoes that i fancy aye. sooo sooo sooo sad :( am i still high or what because i feel quite a lot of emotions going on inside me now. shit, this aint good. i guess i just need more sleep. but any woo hows, goodbye world! till i turn 19! :)